How much you think about them (and hope they don't hate you).
Because life to you is about finding yourself. Outside influences make you digress therefore, you distance yourself it's easier that way.
That being an introvert doesn't mean you hate everyone you would just much rather be alone.
To you being with just a select few friends you know and love and can share genuine moments with is much better than dreading any sort of social gathering because to you it sounds more like a big shallow lie. Oh hi! how are you? Great! You say, because it would be socially unacceptable to be honest if let's say things weren't so great; you're exhausted from work, behind on bills, your best friends not talking to you, etc. Who wants to hear that big handful of not so cheery truth?
How you wish your family saw you in the way your closest friends do.
Because if they did then maybe you would be more accepted because you're a great person with a lot of awesome qualities but you hide that unconsciously because you're too busy planning on explaining why you haven't called.
How none of this has anything to do with them individually.
You have always felt different but your love for them remains the same.
I know alot of this swayed back and forth between introversion and family stuff but for me they go hand in hand.....
Beautiful Beautiful Beautiful
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